Whoa .. wait.. umm.. what?

The title of this blog post has two reasonings behind it. I'll delve into my randomness shortly which you can skip if you so desire. The first part that brought the title to my mind was the headline that I just saw explaining that the porn/adult industry is now requesting a bailout. The banks I understand affect a lot of people and their retirment savings etc. While I might not agree with a bailout as it was done, I can at least really see the economic inpact on a large portion of the country had it not happened. Hell even with the bailout, a lot of people had a huge impact on their lives because of it.

The porn industry however, well, I guess I just don't see it as an essential service. Were it to go under tonight, I am pretty sure there is an extensive enough catalog of porn already out there to tide us over til someone can start it up again with a sound business model. They are asking for 5 Billion. 5 BILLION. Taxpayer money. To bailout the adult industry. W T F? I would be very sorry to see anyone go out of work because their industry is struggling. But with all the people out of work, having their houses forclosed, struggling to feed their families and keep a roof over their heads, I guess I don't feel the average porn star needs special consideration over the rest of the country.

I have nothing against porn mind you. I am all for them running a business and making money at it. But why should a Mom and Pop grocery go out of business and have to just deal with it while major companies, the ones that should be making the best decisions and making sure they can stay intact and afloat, get bailed out by the government? If anyone happens to bump into Larry Flynt, tell him I have a shovel with his name on it.

Now for my musings on life in general. You can stop here if you like and go back to watching reality TV or searching the net for new and creative ways to rid the world of the Rascall Flats and Snaggletooth. The hd-dvd lazer face melter has potential:

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Sometimes you look back at where you have been. Looked back on choices you made and things you have done. And sometimes you just have to shake your head and go "Whoa.. wtf happened there?!?" As they say, hindsight is 20/20. Ok.. well maybe not always 20/20 but it at least had a good run with some lasik surgery if you know what I'm sayin.

With the start of a new year and some things that have come up recently, I have had that chance to really look back. Look back and wonder at myself. Wonder why I wasn't able to forsee some of the things that happened in 2008. Wonder why I didn't handle things differently. Make different choices. I mean I'm older and wiser now right? Shouldn't all those years of experience kick in and prevent me from making a mess of things?

Don't get me wrong, 2008 for the most part was a good year. There were many good times and great memories I will cherish for a long time. I took quite a few trips and vacations this year visiting various family and friends. Who can forget a weekend of swim-camping in Canada? Or a weekend in Vegas with my sister and my closest cousins and their spouses? There were many other great times too.

Guess I just look back in amazement on some of the things I managed to justify to myself. Things I glossed over or thought I could work out one way or another. Sometimes avoiding a tough decision. Sometimes just trying to hold on to something that maybe I should have just let go of. Beating myself up on somethings I shouldn't have..and not being hard enough on myself on others.

That's life though I suppose. It's always easier to see the whole big picture looking back and see the clear and obvious choice. It's much harder to wade through the same situations when you are getting one little piece of puzzle at a time. You think the picture is going to be one thing when the puzzle is complete, but as you get more and more pieces, you realize that the picture really isn't what you expected at all. That doesn't mean the picture is bad. It could still be wonderful. It's just hard to think something is going to be one thing and find out its nothing like what you expected. Then you have to decide if its a puzzle you want to keep working on or not.

How was that for a metaphor? I must say I liked it. If you didn't, its probably because you are one of those people who need the "Don't stop chainsaw with your penis" warning label. In which case a puzzle is probably too hard for you anyway.