One of THOSE days...

Yesterday was very hard.. in a number of ways and for a number of different reasons. I am not going to delve into it here, but I just wanted to say thanks to the people who were there for me. You know who you are.

For quite a while now, life has been full of drama it seems. Every day there was some new twist, some new crisis, some new emotional nutkick. It was crazy. It just seemed to be non-stop for a while. Stress like you wouldn't believe and dealing with issues I won't even beging to write about in a public forum. I am sure some of you can relate though. Everyone has their own drama and bullshit to deal with. Everyone has some of the "crazy" in their life. Every one of us is a bit crazy in their own right, me included.

My drama has started to calm a bit and for a week or so there, my stress level was going down nicely. Then yesterday hit and wow.. through the roof again. Yesterday I had to do something I never expected to have to do in my life. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. When it was done.. I felt sick to my stomach. I certainly felt like I had failed. In many ways I have to have failed to end up arriving where I did yesterday. I am truly sorry for the mistakes I made along the way that hurt you.. that drug us down that road.

You know how you picture something going down in your mind.. have it all played out how it should go? I guess I thought I had an idea how things would be yesterday and how I expected them to go. I will tell you it was nothing like I expected. I was not really prepared for how it all happened or the feelings I had. It didn't get much better as the day wore on. Come to find out that G lost his new glasses at the waterpark on his fieldtrip. Then I expected my evening to go a certain way and while it started that way, it didn't end how I had figured it would.

I know this is all very cryptic, but this is an odd situation for me with my blog. Ideally a blog is a place to toss out ideas and how you are feeling and just random nonsense if you feel like it. I don't like using a public forum though to go into details of my life and others close to me.. so I do it this way so I can try to get some of my feelings out without putting info out there that I feel shouldn't be. If you don't like it or find it too confusing, then don't read it. :P

Again, to all my friends and family that have been supportive through many different situations lately, thank you. I couldn't make it through all this stuff without you. Much <3