These are the days...

I know I talk about music a lot, but if you know me, you know its an important aspect of my life. Like I mentioned previously.. its like a soundtrack to my life in a way. I go through phases where I listen to one kind of music more than another or a specific band. Depending on whats going on in my life at the time I might suddenly hear a new song .. or even an old song that I have heard a hundered times and get meaning out of it. I heard a band talking on the radio the other day about how when they write a song, they have a meaning to the lyrics in mind, but after a decade of playing it live, they are constantly surprised by people that will come up to them after a show and share what that song meant to them. How it played into their lives and personal experiences. I think thats pretty damn cool.

I was listening to some new music the other day.. new to me anyway as I am not always paying attention to the latest and greatest. A song came on the radio and I like the sound so I was listening and started to hear what the lyrics were saying. In searching for a version on youtube to put up here.. I stumbled off a live acoustic version where the singer actually talks about what the song meant to him. It was interesting to hear his take which really wasn't far off mine, but at the same time my take was influenced by people and memories and things going on now in my life. I am sure he had his own set of events that led him to write the lyrics for this song. Here is the song:



The lyrics are as follows:

The more i talk the less i say
When the words get in the way
Lonliness is so hard
Lonliness is so hard
Ordinary i confess
Living under house arrest
Maybe i belong here
Maybe i belong

Suddenly there's beauty in
The way my heart is caving in
And every scar reminds me how
I can't deny

These are the days that last forever
A time in my life i won't surrender
For better or worse, these are the days
In my life i've loved no other
We all have pain, we all have suffered
For better or worse, these are the days
I will remember

The more i learn, the less i know
The final act of letting go
Of everything that life takes
The reason why my heart breaks

Suddenly there's comfort in
The way the world comes crashing in
And every tear reminds me i'm alive
Tonight

These are the days that last forever
A time in my life i won't surrender
For better or worse, these are the days
In my life i've loved no other
We all have pain, we all have suffered
For better or worse, these are the days
I will remember

The more i talk, the less i say
When the words get in the way
Lonliness is so hard
Lonliness is so hard
Ordinary i confess
Living under house arrest
Maybe i belong here
Maybe i belong

These are the days that last forever
A time in my life i won't surrender
For better or worse, these are the days
In my life i've loved no other
We all have pain, we all have suffered
For better or worse, these are the days
I will remember
I will remember
I will remember


Normally when I hear a song.. it makes me thing of a single person.. or single event in my life. Right now, it seems to sum up a number of things going on in my life and reminds me of several different people.. for different reasons. I listened to this song as I did one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life .. write a letter saying goodbye to my Grandmother. This section of the song kept repeating in my head:

The more I learn, the less I know
The final act of letting go
Of everything that life takes
The reason why my heart breaks

Suddenly there's comfort in
The way the world comes crashing in
And every tear reminds me i'm alive
Tonight

As I sat there.. trying to decide what I wanted to say to a person that I love dearly and had such an big impact on my life, I kept hearing those words. The final act of letting go. I don't want to. I feel like life is ripping away not only a wonderfull, special person.. but also a special time in my life. I have such fond memories of weeks spent at Grandma's house.. hanging out with my sister and my cousins. There is truth in what he is saying though. Every tear just made me realize how much she meant to me and I took comfort in the fact that I will always have those memories and she will always have a special place in my heart even if she is not with us physically anymore. A time in my life I won't surrender .... I will remember.

This song fit in with my mood at the time, but I listen to it at other times and it reminds me of other things too. Some happy, some sad.. some a mix of both. I just got to thinking. We all have to make choices. We also have to deal with things we don't have a choice on. Sometimes life is awesome, seems perfect. Sometimes life sucks, its depressing and stressful. Through it all though, it comes down to the people around you. The people that are a part of your life. The family and friends that are always there through thick and thin. They love you when you are a great person. They encourage and support you and cheer you on. They love you even when you are an idiot and a jerk. They forgive you, pick you up, dust you off and show that they still love you.

To all those people in my life, thank you. I wouldn't be who I am today without you. I wouldn't be able to get through the tough parts of life without you. I wouldn't enjoy the great parts of life as much without you to share them with. Even going through this very tough time right now, I try to remember and focus on the good times. The good memories. I try to focus on the good things happening in life now. The great people that are in my life. We all have our stresses and struggles, but we get through them and hopefully it just makes us appreciate what we have and the good times that much more.

For better or worse, these are the days.